Life never been this hard..

life never been this hard, when couldnt speak if only for non important thing.. what to have to had a conversation then, when some things is restricted.

am i wrong? i just want conversation... yeah, it's everyday.. is it wrong? i didnt request for so many times in a day.. (huh, bad is it..till need to use the "request" word??)

but, how could that conversation been done?? if i do not have something really important or interesting to be talked about??

it is damn hurt... but only if the person understand my feeling regarding this..

am i too meminta-minta???? am i???

what else could be the topic for conversation?? if there is no work-related...? and also no what's the activity of today..??? what else??? oh.. don't they get it, that small thing also important in relationship? it's not about mindset.. but it's bout things that will strengthen the relationship... things that can make both heart tied-up more closer and nourishing all the time.. 

oh, this is called as life principal is it? erm.. i understand it is that way.. is it mydear friends out there??i understand, but.. let see in both direction.. i'm the one who like to keep cntct tru the day.. but, as the life-principal of that person is not like that, i admit.. not tru the day.. but, can it be negotiable to have 1 to 2 conversation a day? at least if none in the day, must in the night.. is it too much???  oh i understand in the situation of busy... if busy, then it's fine for me...

but come back here...

it is a burden to my heart when i couldnt talk when there is no important topic at all!! coz lastly it's me who feel hurted and touched... come on... someone help me pls..